Why do I feel like crying,
Why does this feel the most real.
Why do I feel a void
Why does this constant thought bother me.
And it sucks to pretend that everything is good.
That everything will actually be fine
Cause in the end you’re still bothered
Can I just ingest liters of endorphine
Or maybe just inject anesthetic solutions
But I actually feel a bit numb already
Is this how it actually feels?
Well it sucks.
It sucks to the deepest core.
Like I just wanna binge eat or ingest everything that’s thrown at me.
I just want answers.
I just want to fill this void inside me.
It just sucks.
11.2.19
