tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-64159891909602862132024-03-13T02:12:33.815-07:00forever young~I always come back stranded in my sea of dreams.dee chttp://www.blogger.com/profile/02083789092925681334noreply@blogger.comBlogger68125tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6415989190960286213.post-35040076980782071222022-06-21T09:17:00.003-07:002022-06-21T09:23:17.718-07:00enveloped thoughts entry 1<p> Marriage is hard. Its the venture of two souls, two minds and getting into things you used to not do. Its nerve wracking, and its pretty much these set of thingamajigs which you never thought you'd process all at the same time and every thing just keeps being thrown at you piece by piece and you cant do anything but accept the things that come.</p><p>Im not saying what im going through is tough as heck, cause i know this is just the tip of the iceberg for some. But i know what im feeling is pretty much valid, and i hope no one invalidates me for this. But its just hard. I knew from the start new things rattle me, but I didnt know it was this hard. And im doing all these things alone, and im pretty much indistress. And its not that its intended to be such, it just was always been the situation from the start.</p><p>And im writing this just to put out all these things piling up in this brain of mine cause I swear, these is becoming too much to handle for me.</p><p>And im just trying so hard to get my message thru but im just always stuck at something and i cant get thru. Ive always lived life alone never needing anyone or at least try to suffice and learn to do things on my own but its just that sometimes you need people to actually help you thru the process of stuff, but I dont want to burden anyone with it. Its that time when I want my mama with me again to help me get passed this and hold my hand and help me with every step.</p><p>No one ever said it would be this hard. And im only just beginning. Baby steps.</p><p>and some one to hold my hand so i can get through...</p><p>someday, soon.</p><p>06.22.21</p><p>12:17am</p>dee chttp://www.blogger.com/profile/02083789092925681334noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6415989190960286213.post-44680124025453449812020-11-10T10:14:00.000-08:002020-11-10T10:14:12.899-08:00Hello there<p> Its been so long.</p><p>This will not even have flowery words,</p><p>nor will it have any idiomatic expressions.</p><p>I just wanna vent out.</p><p><br /></p><p>My mind is circling once again</p><p>To and fro</p><p>I have this one thought in my head</p><p>I can never forget.</p><p><br /></p><p>Why does life keep wanting you to give</p><p>When you dont even have enough for yourself</p><p>How do you continue to fight and live</p><p>When they dont even understand you</p><p><br /></p><p>It sucks.</p><p>And its excruciating.</p><p>I havent felt this way in forever.</p><p>Its like everything’s just sinking in.</p><p><br /></p><p>...why does it have to be this way.</p><p>I wanna walk and have wings of my own.</p><p>But its like everytime i try my wings get cut off</p><p>Its like trying to shut me down.</p><p><br /></p><p>And it just keeps pulling me down.</p><p>Im not even on ground zero yet</p><p>But it sure heck hurts and stings</p><p>Down to the core</p><p><br /></p><p>Someday I will have my own wings</p><p>Someday I will fly high.</p><p>Someday I will have enough</p><p>Someday I will build my dreams.</p><p><br /></p><p>One step at a time.</p><p>No matter how hard.</p><p>No matter the nay sayers.</p><p>No matter what.</p>dee chttp://www.blogger.com/profile/02083789092925681334noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6415989190960286213.post-58128536501188141382020-04-25T17:24:00.002-07:002020-04-25T17:28:27.496-07:00An open letter to all my friends.Its always lovely to reminisce old memories,<br />
Friends you have found along your journey<br />
Photosnaps you’d wish to go back to<br />
Moments you wish stayed forever<br />
<br />
But everything in this world is fleeting<br />
We grow each day<br />
Further from who we were yesterday<br />
Never really a new person, but better<br />
<br />
We cant stay stationary<br />
Just like how the earth always revolves<br />
Life is fast phased<br />
And we have to keep up with it<br />
<br />
Im just happy I get a chance to recollect<br />
Some thoughts, some emotion<br />
Of the things that happened,<br />
Of bonds that were created<br />
<br />
We mature and we change<br />
Most folks stay<br />
They stay but its never the same way sometimes<br />
Interests and topics go by<br />
<br />
Leaving everyone with just memories<br />
Of what had beens and what might have been.<br />
What had happened and what was supposed to happen<br />
Had you stayed stationary.<br />
<br />
As we grow we collect friends a long the way<br />
Good and bad, long and short term<br />
Memories of them will stay<br />
Sometimes a little blurry others so vivid<br />
<br />
Guess this post is for all the friends I’ve met<br />
Along this long and winding journey called life<br />
I may not always be there<br />
To laugh and to talk with<br />
<br />
Because life has not been made stationary<br />
We tend to walk the whole earth<br />
And meet people along the way<br />
We tend to get caught up by the present<br />
<br />
But we will never forget the past<br />
Of the hype of emotions<br />
The wave of thoughts<br />
And the unending stories<br />
<br />
It will forever be etched in my heart<br />
Something I’ll reminisce in times like tonight<br />
Memories of when we used to talk<br />
Moments of fun and sadness<br />
<br />
I may not always be there at all times<br />
But im always a friend.<br />
I may pop up once in a while<br />
But i’ll forever be here.<br />
<br />
Just not always, like before<br />
But here infinitely when you need me<br />
Just call my name<br />
Or just pop up randomly in my mind<br />
<br />
Expect I’ll drop a message<br />
Maybe say hi,<br />
And likely, try to reminisce some memries<br />
Of yesteryears, or of the present<br />
<br />
Im sorry for not always being there<br />
Im sorry for unanswered messages<br />
But im happy, you’re happy<br />
Im happy life has been good and swell.<br />
<br />
I love you, i miss you.<br />
<br />
<br />
your friend.<br />
<br />dee chttp://www.blogger.com/profile/02083789092925681334noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6415989190960286213.post-51124686442440863952020-03-13T18:04:00.001-07:002020-03-13T18:04:32.750-07:00first love.you will always be a wonderful memory.<br />
a memory i’d go back to<br />
of flashbacks and reminiscing.<br />
<br />
a history of that what if<br />
of a smile i’d paint when i think of you<br />
just remembering the old days<br />
<br />
but never going back to it<br />
just a recollection of thoughts<br />
untainted and unharmed.<br />
<br />
just a glance of rose tinted glasses<br />
and how the world looks like<br />
in the eyes of one in love.dee chttp://www.blogger.com/profile/02083789092925681334noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6415989190960286213.post-86456823545071498922019-11-02T08:21:00.002-07:002019-11-02T08:21:13.901-07:00why.Why do I feel like crying,<br />
Why does this feel the most real.<br />
Why do I feel a void<br />
Why does this constant thought bother me.<br />
<br />
And it sucks to pretend that everything is good.<br />
That everything will actually be fine<br />
Cause in the end you’re still bothered<br />
Can I just ingest liters of endorphine<br />
<br />
Or maybe just inject anesthetic solutions<br />
But I actually feel a bit numb already<br />
Is this how it actually feels?<br />
Well it sucks.<br />
<br />
It sucks to the deepest core.<br />
Like I just wanna binge eat or ingest everything that’s thrown at me.<br />
I just want answers.<br />
I just want to fill this void inside me.<br />
<br />
It just sucks.<br />
<br />
11.2.19dee chttp://www.blogger.com/profile/02083789092925681334noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6415989190960286213.post-77656674986986178342019-10-27T22:46:00.002-07:002019-11-03T09:01:13.307-08:00roha love~<blockquote class="tr_bq">
<i>I learned that when you give love, it bounces back to you and multiplies a thousand folds.</i></blockquote>
Its been 3 months since I first set foot on this new world, its quite different to me, I got a bit culture shocked if you ask me, but everything seemed so welcoming and homey.<br />
<br />
Its been a month since I stumbled upon people on stan twt that made me open an account of my own. At first it was lonely, looking at that "0 followers" actually suck, it was a new slate, a new world, a new dimension. Everyone was pretty much acquainted. And it was lovely seeing convos go from bias talks to life talks. It felt warm. I wondered how I'll survive in this new world.<br />
<br />
Entering a new fandom different from my old fandoms made me feel like fish out of water. I wondered how I'll survive. There were also lots of new terms and not to mention lots of new things to learn? I never knew fangirling could be another level of complicated? But the complications make you prove your love for the boys and this fandom in general. If you're wondering what those complications are, well, those are the hanguls and many instructions for fancafe and voting thingamajigs. haha<br />
<br />
But it was also in AAA that I tolerated myself to make a stan twt. I wanted to make another account that could vote for the boys on AAA. Ended up using it and made it a stan twt. I tried to learn the ropes and to observe rohas and how they interacted. I butt in in a lot of convos cause I wanted to try to engage to people, it was fun. Rohas are so warm and friendly, they literally dont bite.<br />
<br />
I have been a fangirl for as long as I can remember, I never knew that at this age I'd actually get to meet a whole new set of people. I still wake up everyday asking myself what I've been doing with my life recently, but darn, these boys make me do things I never knew I was ever capable of doing. Also these rohas, they are so lovable and genuine. I just wanna wrap them all and keep them in my pocket.<br />
<br />
I ended up finding myself on stan twt 24/7. Aint that swell? I met loads of new moots and I love how they were all easy to get along with. I even met a literal twin. This fandom is growing on me so much, just as much as those 6 dorks who has invaded my life and my schedule in ways I can never explain to normal people.<br />
<br />
Its been more than a month on stan twt and I cant believe I came here again just in time. What would have happened to me if I wasn't here? Would I have enjoyed just as much? Would I have gotten to watch starlight too? Please believe me when I say that Cha Eun Woo was beyond awesome, the night was perfect, but it got even more perfect knowing that I'd get to hang out with new friends too afterwards.<br />
<br />
Meeting new people for the first time is startling, but rohas are so welcoming, it doesn't feel like that at all. I love how we can go on and on about astro and the things we love. This love we culture for the boys spreads like wildfire, we cant contain it. We love the boys oh so much we'd do everything for them. And I love I found people with that same interest.<br />
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I'm literally making this post to relieve myself of all that's on my mind. I have loads more but I just wanna give a big shout out to all my moots. You have welcomed a baby roha into this fandom and I am forever thankful. I promise to support the boys and rohas for as long as I can.<br />
<br />
THANK YOU <3<br />
<br />
<br />
love,<br />
dee xdee chttp://www.blogger.com/profile/02083789092925681334noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6415989190960286213.post-45121449646120272762019-10-01T21:44:00.000-07:002019-11-03T09:08:37.941-08:00Writing for my 6 stars 💫I dont know if you feel this way too, but these 6 dorks,<br />
their smiles and laughter warm my heart a lot.<br />
They have been my escape and my distraction for these past few months<br />
Whenever I see videos of them, it feels like an escape<br />
and all your troubles just seem to fade away~<br />
<br />
The way they sing You and Me makes my heart flutter<br />
Its like the feeling that they matter a lot to you<br />
but you matter a lot to them too.<br />
Its that feeling of reciprocation 💞<br />
<br />
They may not know you exist to love them,<br />
But you know they’re thankful for each and every<br />
ounce of love you shower them upon. 💝<br />
<br />
The way they slowly paint smiles on their faces<br />
Makes me feel jitters<br />
And when you stare deep into their eyes<br />
You know its endgame<br />
<br />
Their crazy antics make me laugh out loud in ways<br />
I never thought could touch my heart deeply,<br />
They make me forget about the world even in just<br />
a fraction of a second~<br />
<br />
You came into my life as a distraction<br />
from this crazy chaos inside my brain,<br />
But dear love, I am happy.<br />
<br />
I am happy the way I wake up and see updates<br />
The way you’d all always ask about rohas’ day and if we’ve eaten<br />
<br />
Do you all know how much you mean to us?<br />
How much joy you give whenever you post individual selcas?<br />
And much more when you’re all together?<br />
It feels like bliss. ✨<br />
<br />
We are happy whenever you are all happy.<br />
You all are our drug,<br />
Our medicine to all that’s not well and aching<br />
<br />
Thank you for exisiting 💫<br />
You make us all go cray with just a mere blink of an eye<br />
Or a booty shake, or even just plain existing.<br />
<br />
You all deserve so much love,<br />
You all are stars in our hearts that will forever be here till the end. 💘<br />
<br />
You said you wanted to be our stars,<br />
And in a snap of a finger, you all entered our hearts<br />
Not knowing this will be the start of something beautiful 💜<br />
<br />
It has been an awesome journey with these 6 dorks by my side<br />
and some rohas I have met just recently.<br />
<br />
I love this new found happiness and I love all of you 💓<br />
<br />
I wanna walk with you all,<br />
One step<br />
Two steps<br />
Three steps ✨💜<br />
<br />
<br />
- your baby aroha, Dee 💫<br />
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<br />dee chttp://www.blogger.com/profile/02083789092925681334noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6415989190960286213.post-18675702479951624832019-08-20T00:00:00.000-07:002019-08-20T00:00:34.301-07:00turning a new leafwhat does turning a new leaf mean?<br />
will it mean actual change?<br />
or will it go gradually?<br />
few days has passed and i feel anxious<br />
<br />
i've never felt so anxious for such a long time<br />
it feels as though pressure has been thrown right at me<br />
something no one has ever given me<br />
but myself<br />
<br />
they say timelines dont matter<br />
but maybe just sometimes<br />
when we actually think that it doesnt<br />
we tend to forget<br />
<br />
to forget that we should actually plan<br />
for the days that will come by<br />
for the month that will actually pass by swiftly<br />
for years that you never thought will come<br />
<br />
but actually, its nearer than you ever thought it would be<br />
i am faced by this consequence<br />
a consequence i knew i needed to face in time<br />
but what does anyone need to ever be prepared?<br />
<br />
i have questioned myself a thousand times<br />
ive thrown questions here and there<br />
but it just seems like a one way street<br />
so many questions and yet not one single one answered<br />
<br />
its deafening<br />
its just like a one sided whirlwind of thoughts<br />
im stuck in this limbo<br />
i dont know when i'll ever leave<br />
<br />
im so clueless,<br />
i dont even know what to do<br />
i dont even know where to start<br />
what i know is just the now<br />
<br />
how does one turn a new leaf?<br />
<br />dee chttp://www.blogger.com/profile/02083789092925681334noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6415989190960286213.post-42962659655837605032019-08-19T23:48:00.000-07:002019-11-03T09:12:27.679-08:00being aloneDeafening silence, sometimes I ought to surround myself with this<br />
Just to let my heart and mind think<br />
I miss those times when walking nourished my soul<br />
When just pure lurking around inspired me<br />
<br />
Those times when staring at falling leaves meant a new poem<br />
When looking at children playing felt nostalgic<br />
Capturing each moment seemed like writing stories that will infinitely last<br />
Everything has gone by so fast and smoothly<br />
<br />
I cant seem to keep up with this fast phased world<br />
Sometimes I feel like I'm even losing who I was before<br />
We live in this world where constant change is needed<br />
I hate to say it, but most often, we conform<br />
<br />
Maybe that's why ever so often,<br />
I would choose to just sit still and wonder<br />
Waiting for thoughts to come by<br />
Those moments when being alone meant bliss<br />
<br />
Being alone meant I could write something new<br />
Being alone meant I could hear my own thoughts<br />
Being alone meant joy to my soul<br />
Being alone meant creativity could flow<br />
<br />
Its awesome to wander around people,<br />
To learn about them, to know who they are<br />
But there's just this accomplishing feeling<br />
When at the end of the day you belong to you.<br />
<br />
You realize everything that's happened<br />
And tap yourself in the back<br />
Bliss. That only you yourself can give.<br />
Maybe this is self worth.dee chttp://www.blogger.com/profile/02083789092925681334noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6415989190960286213.post-17473452316961631412019-04-09T21:41:00.000-07:002019-04-09T21:41:47.806-07:00What can do you do when a friend is heartbroken?<a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEj98OSs7JO6mXbDSKcrwscrqunP7m69RFFWyF1OcoSMb3buVYlC8jpryiWi0cp7iLfe8NUjKg8kp9aoVt8Ry35_asw5sG9DpIU-09HUCXNy__41TyhOqa0ofuoUjjtO2l6hZG0Umv1ZOjQ/s1600/DA07A28C-F83D-4889-815E-C501FBB7BE60.png" imageanchor="1"><img border="0" data-original-height="789" data-original-width="940" height="269" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEj98OSs7JO6mXbDSKcrwscrqunP7m69RFFWyF1OcoSMb3buVYlC8jpryiWi0cp7iLfe8NUjKg8kp9aoVt8Ry35_asw5sG9DpIU-09HUCXNy__41TyhOqa0ofuoUjjtO2l6hZG0Umv1ZOjQ/s320/DA07A28C-F83D-4889-815E-C501FBB7BE60.png" width="320" /></a><br />
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<span style="caret-color: rgb(69, 69, 69); color: #454545; font-family: UICTFontTextStyleBody; font-size: 17px; text-decoration: -webkit-letterpress;">What do you do when a friend is heartbroken?</span><br />
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Perhaps tell her words that you think will ease her heart</div>
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Help her get some sweets or buy her ice cream to put her in glee</div>
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Comfort her with all your heart and hope it eases her soul</div>
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Or maybe just sit there with her as she vents her heart out</div>
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Words of wisdom or some love quotations will never ease a broken soul</div>
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Nor will a heartbreak soundtrack nor a sweet flick movie</div>
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What matters most is just to be there in that moment</div>
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So when she’s ready to break down you’ll let her fall and you’ll catch her</div>
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Unlike that guy who let her fall but unknowingly went by and took the nearest exit</div>
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Just be there for her</div>
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Words will never be enough</div>
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Just let her cry and all will get better in the end</div>
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I know words can never suffice and heal all that’s aching</div>
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But dear friend, just know were here</div>
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Its true what they say, boyfriends come and pass</div>
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But your real friends will always stay by your side and stick with you</div>
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I dont know what else to say</div>
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But cry it all out, let lose all that hatred and frustration</div>
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We will continue to listen</div>
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Up till you finally say</div>
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“Im better off without him</div>
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Im okay now”</div>
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Cheers girl! There’s someone out there for you</div>
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And we’ll all together continue to pray for that 🙏</div>
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12:27pm</div>
dee chttp://www.blogger.com/profile/02083789092925681334noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6415989190960286213.post-79564181985951977102019-04-07T08:55:00.000-07:002019-04-07T08:58:55.504-07:00Friends through Milestones~I dont think Im ready to let go of this night just yet<br />
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Its moments like this when you realize you did something well in the past.<br />
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Its moments like this when you realize the universe never owed you anything but it gave you back an awesome gift.<br />
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Its moments like this when you realize you are blessed beyond compared.<br />
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Its moments like this when you realize these are friends for keeps and you ought to have them till infinite days of bliss, of ups and downs, in hope and in love.<br />
<br />
Perhaps plans usually gets scrapped and cancelled because maybe were just destined to celebrate something beyond our years could ever think or imagine.<br />
<br />
We were then young and naive, not knowing where life may lead us, but guess what?<br />
<br />
Here we are slowly celebrating each others milestones....<br />
<br />
I used to watch this on movies, but never did I realize that experiencing it first hand would be like riding a roller coaster ride.<br />
<br />
Its like every snap of a picture is like a flashback of how it was in the yesteryears.<br />
<br />
Of someone searching for love, and now of to marry the man of her dreams.<br />
<br />
Of someone breaking to us an awesome news about her bundle of joy, making all of us legit titas and tito.<br />
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Its been an awesome journey, I cant wait to continue moving forward.<br />
<br />
Distance or time maybe a hindrance but I know, this friendship shall last.<br />
<br />
Till the last person marries.<br />
<br />
Till the last person gets children.<br />
<br />
Till the last person retires<br />
<br />
Till the last person becomes a senior.<br />
<br />
To more memories and more moments together.<br />
<br />
Change is inevitable, but everything becomes bearable with friends by your side cheering you on and lending a helping hand.<br />
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10:20pm.<br />
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From lecture halls, to CEU's clinics, to Manila hotel, to Manila hotel again, to our work places, to preceptor-ships, to annual conventions and to many more places and milestones, I'll continue to close my eyes and dream with you guys by my side. Thank you for making the past 10 years amazing <3<br />
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Love,<br />
your maknae xdee chttp://www.blogger.com/profile/02083789092925681334noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6415989190960286213.post-39933560342533203752019-04-02T08:39:00.003-07:002019-04-02T09:00:05.695-07:00crossroads.i was always that kid who never wanted to grow up,<br />
not because my childhood was never great<br />
i just wanted to savor every moment of it<br />
being young felt like a passport to do all things without much to think about<br />
<br />
looking back and reading prose from recent years<br />
I realized
i was growing up and i was struggling<br />
i was struggling to joggle a new life that's set before me<br />
i lost track of my passion and i lost time for myself<br />
<br />
i forgot how it was to actually feel passion burning from deep within<br />
i forgot how it was to take in something and live in the moment<br />
i forgot how it was to actually feel like a kid without any responsibilities<br />
i forgot to live, and to actually be in that moment.<br />
<br />
maybe i was right,<br />
i never really wanted to grow up.<br />
but would do i do?<br />
i can never take all the years back.<br />
<br />
we were never meant to age backwards.<br />
we were always meant to keep moving forward<br />
to stop and enjoy breaks<br />
but continue to strive and go further<br />
<br />
its always great to look back and remember old memories<br />
i will never forget the little prince and his friend the fox<br />
nor will i ever forget the elephant and the boa constrictor<br />
time is only relevant, to age is inevitable<br />
<br />
we can always come back and enjoy the old days<br />
the feeling it brought
and the happiness that once stayed<br />
but its always a great thing
to look forward to what lies ahead<br />
to the journey that awaits<br />
<br />
growing up will never ever be easy.<br />
i just have to stand tall and believe<br />
that i can conquer tomorrow, one step a time.<br />
<br />
because i may always regret not being a kid again,<br />
but i will always be that kid with big dreams.<br />
and right now, right here...<br />
i'm bound to achieve those goals, just wait and see.<br />
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040219.11.40pmdee chttp://www.blogger.com/profile/02083789092925681334noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6415989190960286213.post-11004218212925906412019-04-02T08:21:00.001-07:002019-04-02T08:21:46.327-07:00growing upMy thoughts have long been filled with unending errands and ideas that run a jolt
I have long been contemplating of writing and going back to my core
That alone time of just simply being quiet
Longing to reminisce and bask in life's wonders
Working has put me in a four cornered cage
Trapped within four walls,
it feels like confinement.
My thoughts no longer free to run wild.
I miss long walks and just staring at the sky
Looking at tall buildings, wondering how long it took to build them
Life outside this four cornered stall continued to flourish
Whether I got to be there for it or not
Trees got taller, kids grew bigger
Some places no longer what they used to be
And these pages I write on, they're fresh
As if waiting to be written on
Life continues moving
Whether you participate or not
Whether this notebook remains empty or filled
Gone are the days of frolic and idleness
I wish I can fill these pages again
Ooze with some inspiration
And jot down nonstop
Which I once did
Its true, things change
And so does circumstance
I wonder if things ever go back to normal
Or maybe this is really just part of growing up?
enveloped thoughts.
071818.11:09pmdee chttp://www.blogger.com/profile/02083789092925681334noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6415989190960286213.post-11905935972347116442019-01-26T05:53:00.000-08:002019-04-02T08:22:12.016-07:00Untitled.And once again I feel so agitated.
I feel a whirlwind of emotions will soon come in frantic
Tumultuous and chaotic
I cannot seem to fathom
All I can do is but to type and rant and speak thru words
That I hope echoes to my deepest core
Nothing to do but stare as the mind keeps on thinking and thinking
It never stops, everything just seems to fast
I wish it can all stop for a while
To make time for breathing and contemplating
For rest and some relaxation.
To at least bring me back some sanity 🙈
dee chttp://www.blogger.com/profile/02083789092925681334noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6415989190960286213.post-68485172526758887412018-10-10T06:15:00.000-07:002018-10-10T06:17:52.058-07:00Wasting Youth~
And just so suddenly I decided to close my eyes that share a window to the world
I found myself deep into the ocean
Staring blankly into my own reflection
A person I have always come to know
But she seems different from when I last saw her
She’s looks much wiser but looking deeper into her eyes
You can see desperation and frustration
Of untangled dreams that seem far to reach
Looking into her I realize she’s slowly growing old
Never yet realizing her dreams and goals
Her mind is focused on but one undertaking
A venture that has enslaved her for years
Step, step, barefoot on the beach,
She would always dream about a sunny day
Where she’d get sunkissed while listening to music
On a fairly nice holiday away from the city buzz
Ring, ring, its 1 o’clock
She would always dream to wake up in the afternoon
Even just for once in her life
To know that she’s at least a human and deserves a bit more rest
Swish, swish, she pulls her suitcase
She would always dream to fly from one country or place to another
Even just to savor the moment
And pretend that all the world’s but a destination she can easily reach
Brrr, brrr, she awakens from her realization
That all these are just dreams
And here she is, wasting away her youth
In four cornered walls, her life slips away~
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Church.
9:06pmdee chttp://www.blogger.com/profile/02083789092925681334noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6415989190960286213.post-26568494443427939412018-09-30T20:32:00.004-07:002018-09-30T20:32:48.693-07:00not living, rather just breathing.Its like im a tight rope that people keep clinging on to
Its sophocating
I cant even phatom how i’ve been surviving for years and years
Its draining, exhausting, but I’ve been bearing it
Someone once told me,
Aint it nice that people actually need you?
But still, he told me that’s not it.
You have to live your own life
Not living the life others want you to
Not living a life where others needs is first
Not living a life where losing you is a waterloo
Not living.. its simply not living, but rather compromising
I’ve been meaning to look for the nearest exit
But the tunnel just keeps on going on and on
Its slowly weakening me to the core
Tried to shout and cry in despair but to no avail
I just wish someday things will be different
I just wish someday i’ll find my own freedom
A life I wish to live
A life not caged by this four cornered walls
To smell the flowers at daytime
To breathe in the fresh air on a weekday
To see how lovely the sunset is in summer
And to experience life as told by many youngsters 💕
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Morning thoughts.
dee chttp://www.blogger.com/profile/02083789092925681334noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6415989190960286213.post-57159507044529724562018-04-16T07:20:00.000-07:002018-04-16T07:20:20.672-07:00Para kay Kiko.If only you knew how the world would be without you,
If only you knew how those spaces in her hands would feel so empty
If only you knew how big a void it would be to not have you here
Maybe you'd stay
Maybe you'll realize how big of a blessing you are
Maybe you'll see how big of an impact you've made
Perhaps it was too late
Perhaps there were words never said
Perhap it was meant to be left untold
But we'll always wish for a comeback
That one day you'll sing phrases
And make new melodies and memories
That one day you'll continue to strum and play
Flash that big grin of yours
And post witty stat ups on facebook
Your life has touched many
Though short you have lived well
It may be the end of life
But never the end for memories
Forever entangled in our hearts
Engraved with precious emotions
Thank you for sharing your life
Your songs, your frustrations and your joy
The lyrics and melody will forever stay
We wish you more love and happiness
Our paths may no longer diverge in this lifetime
But kudos kiko, you did well in this lifetime.
- Dee
1.12pm 041318dee chttp://www.blogger.com/profile/02083789092925681334noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6415989190960286213.post-44172858529080640492018-04-03T08:33:00.000-07:002018-04-03T08:40:51.533-07:00alas onse ng gabialas onse ng gabi, nagbukas ng blog<br />h
biglang pumasok sa utak mga salita<br />
mga talata, mga ideya, mga parirala.<br />
<br />
alas onse ng gabi, namimiss kita.<br />
pilit iniisip ano marahil ang araw kung nariyan ka.<br />
kung sa pagising may pag asang masulyapan ka.<br />
<br />
alas onse ng gabi, patuloy na nagrerefresh ng inbox.<br />
nagbabaka sakali baka may bagong mensahe.<br />
mensaheng makakapagpatulog sa isip na ayaw magpahinga.<br />
<br />
alas onse ng gabi, tila nangungulila.<br />
sa isang ngiti, sa isang larawan.<br />
sa isang tunog ng cellphone, sa isang boses na tila ketagal ng di narinig.<br />
<br />
alas onse ng gabi, nagtatanong.<br />
nagaalala, nagtataka.<br />
ano na mga ba ang meron?<br />
<br />
alas onse ng gabi, namimiss kita.<br />
at patuloy akong magsusulat<br />
nagbabakasakali na sa isang segundo, nariyan na.<br />
<br />
alas onse ng gabi, namimiss kita.<br />
kumusta kaya ang araw mo?<br />
kumusta kaya ang trabaho mo?<br />
<br />
alas onse ng gabi, namimiss kita.<br />
alam kong namimiss mo rin ako<br />
kunwari ka pa.<br />
<br />
alas onse ng gabi, at malapit na mag 12.<br />
pero lilipas na naman ang araw at hindi kita kausap.<br />
baka sakali bukas pagising, may green na tuldok.<br />
<br />
alas onse ng gabi, magpapalit araw na.<br />
pinapanalangin pagising ko, may good morning na.<br />
o kahit siguro good night.<br />
<br />
alas onse ng gabi, dumating na si pinsan.<br />
hahawiin ang nangingilid na luha.<br />
at tatapusin ang tula.<br />
<br />
<br />
<br />
04.03.18<br />
11:32pm<br />
<br />dee chttp://www.blogger.com/profile/02083789092925681334noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6415989190960286213.post-52633436252551977992017-11-05T12:12:00.000-08:002017-11-05T12:12:04.203-08:00live and loveAnd just like a flicker,<br />
We're one day gone in this world.<br />
Passing like folly<br />
Never realizing we slowly drift away<br />
<br />
Appreciate what's infront of you<br />
Never let go of a moment<br />
Seize the day<br />
Embrace change<br />
<br />
Treasure the memories<br />
Live for the day<br />
Live and love<br />
Laugh often, cry a little<br />
<br />
We never know when one's time is up<br />
So live and love<br />
Never forget to stop and enjoy the view<br />
Just live and breathe<br />
<br />
Life's meant to be lived not to be caged<br />
Let go of the chains and the burdens<br />
Seize the day,<br />
Live and love till the end of time.dee chttp://www.blogger.com/profile/02083789092925681334noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6415989190960286213.post-1836056499188458002017-07-15T05:43:00.001-07:002017-07-15T05:43:09.225-07:00gold tears<div style="-webkit-composition-fill-color: rgba(130, 98, 83, 0.0980392); color: rgba(0, 0, 0, 0.701961); font-family: UICTFontTextStyleBody; font-size: 16px; text-decoration: -webkit-letterpress;">
solid gold tears,</div>
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if I were to say.</div>
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i love you.</div>
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though you'd always feel lacking</div>
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solid gold tears.</div>
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and so it freely falls</div>
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i love you.</div>
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and it gives me shivers how my eyes are so full with tears</div>
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solid gold tears</div>
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waiting to just freely unleash its power</div>
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i love you.</div>
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much more frequent than how the sun rises or the moon shines</div>
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solid gold tears</div>
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they slowly fall as I long for one sweet grace</div>
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i love you.</div>
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you creature you, i have loved you more than i myself could allow</div>
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solid gold tears</div>
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as I begin to ponder on memories</div>
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dont quit, dont give up.</div>
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you told me! you told me to never give up!</div>
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solid gold tears</div>
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as I slowly hold them back</div>
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you told me to hold on and we can make it. i've been holding on. but what's the commotion</div>
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solid gold tears.</div>
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just let it rot in my system.</div>
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i reckon i wont bear it if this tears linger for a while more.</div>
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i love you.</div>
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can you hear me?</div>
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071517</div>
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8:39pm</div>
dee chttp://www.blogger.com/profile/02083789092925681334noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6415989190960286213.post-2716025364308569312016-12-20T18:30:00.003-08:002016-12-20T18:33:05.162-08:00tic tacTic tac,<br />
Its like your life passes by<br />
Before your very eyes<br />
<br />
Tic tac,<br />
Its like time running out<br />
As you stay in one corner<br />
<br />
Tic tac,<br />
Its like having the world count on you<br />
Tic tac,<br />
But never really having anyone to count on<br />
<br />
Tic tac,<br />
Its like digesting everyone's meal<br />
Tic tac,<br />
And expecting to take it all out as well<br />
<br />
Tic tac,<br />
Its like things wont run smoothly<br />
Tic tac,<br />
Without you. Without you.<br />
<br />
Tic tac,<br />
Its as if everyone's lives depended on you<br />
Tic tac,<br />
Its like putting the world on your shoulders<br />
<br />
Tic tac,<br />
Its like finding someone<br />
Tic tac,<br />
To finally lay the burden on<br />
<br />
Tic tac,<br />
Its hoping this wont take a while anymore<br />
Tic tac,<br />
Its what keeps me going<br />
<br />
Tic tac,<br />
To know that time runs fast<br />
Tic tac,<br />
However slow it feels like<br />
<br />
Tic tac,<br />
I'll let the hands move<br />
Tic tac,<br />
Just as it slowly diverts attention<br />
<br />
Tic tac,<br />
Not on me<br />
Tic tac,<br />
But on to another<br />
<br />
Tic tac,<br />
And so the clock moves<br />
Tic tac,<br />
And though youth passes by<br />
<br />
Another youth becomes adult.<br />
To pass on a lifetime of work.<br />
To pass on all that's giving bondage<br />
To finally live a life<br />
<br />
Free of worries<br />
Free of deadlines<br />
Free of responsibilities<br />
Of others.<br />
<br />
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10:30AM<br />
122116dee chttp://www.blogger.com/profile/02083789092925681334noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6415989190960286213.post-73660979928966460412016-12-20T17:59:00.001-08:002016-12-20T18:05:01.585-08:00HopeTarry a little while<br />
These four cornered walls<br />
They seem to sophocate<br />
Slowly, its like an echoing silence<br />
<br />
Drowning you into an infinite mess<br />
Of chaos and distraction<br />
You keep your eye on the price<br />
And your head focused<br />
<br />
But it lingers<br />
Grasping your skin till it hurts<br />
Till it hurts,<br />
And till you wake<br />
<br />
This is not a dream<br />
And that's when it sinks in deep<br />
This is not a dream<br />
Its reality waiting to uncover<br />
<br />
This is not a dream<br />
And I wish it was<br />
This is not a dream<br />
How can this be real?<br />
<br />
This is not a dream<br />
How I wish fairytales were real<br />
This is not a dream<br />
But I still strongly hope<br />
<br />
That one day soon<br />
I'll wake up<br />
Tears turn to dust<br />
Clinging on to hope<br />
<br />
That one day, the present would only be just a dream.<br />
<br />
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9:58AM<br />
122116dee chttp://www.blogger.com/profile/02083789092925681334noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6415989190960286213.post-42022228679074113542016-11-29T09:49:00.001-08:002016-12-20T17:51:57.405-08:00broken stringsAnd you keep playing music, chilling
Disregarding life and all its chaos
Keep strumming, humming that tune
You kept singing that verse you dont even know is right
Play it continously
Go on, go on.
Till we finally realize
Everything has its own depreciation level.
And slowly,
Slowly
The strings get broken
Like a ticking time bomb
As it gets used.
It draws near the deadline.
Getting through smoothly...
Or finally saying goodbye.
These broken strings,
Its tired.
Tired as heck,
They're praying to get changed.
Or at least get some new friends.
Its shouting a big SOS.
Help.
These broken strings...
Saying goodbye...
Just a little sooner and ever..
1.49AM
113016dee chttp://www.blogger.com/profile/02083789092925681334noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6415989190960286213.post-68871139430656735952016-11-29T09:43:00.000-08:002016-11-29T09:43:23.984-08:00Until when?Smiles.
Greatest weapon.
Greatest self destruct grievance.
Best way to say you're fine and happy
When in fact you're near the verge of slowly giving up.
If any person would ever be in my place?
I'd say they would have given up.
Long time ago.
But to say this,
Its like boasting.
Many have long stayed.
How long should I stay?
How long can I stay?
How long will I bear.
How long will I try.
How long will I crawl.
How long will I pretend.
Lord.. give me a reason to stay.
give me a helping hand to believe things are possible.
Lord, strengthen me more each day.
Help me believe that anything is possible.
Oh Lord... to feel free.
Is the most valuable treasure.
To savor the wind in my hair
To feel the sand in the seas..
Oh Lord, just one break.
Just one quick one.
I dont wanna be drowned in this misery.
Its slowly swallowing me whole.
Its eating me like a kid eats cake.
Slowly, savoring me, piece by piece
And it aches, it aches a little
A little then a lot.
Then it hastens, but then it lingers.
Going steady then fast.
Oh dear, save me
Its deep within me..
Until when will this end.
Until when.
Until when.
Until when...
113016
1:31AM
:/dee chttp://www.blogger.com/profile/02083789092925681334noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6415989190960286213.post-30130297673937978842016-03-13T10:00:00.000-07:002016-03-13T10:00:42.276-07:00Dentista.Funny how I started this page as a student
A student with high hopes and dreams.
A student with a passion to share her thoughts through bits of fragmented words and phrases.
Its been years, and finallu
I pushed through.
It was a long journey,
But it was all worth the wait.
8 months has passed since my first day at work
Its been draining yet fulfilling.
Nothing much has changed.
Although I have less time to write.....
And less time to explore the world and all its wonders
Nevertheless I wanna prepare myself for the good life
Its gonna be one heck of a ride and im gonna enjoy it :)
Cheers for now! x
12:59pm
March 14, 2016dee chttp://www.blogger.com/profile/02083789092925681334noreply@blogger.com0