Wasting Youth~

And just so suddenly I decided to close my eyes that share a window to the world I found myself deep into the ocean Staring blankly into my own reflection A person I have always come to know But she seems different from when I last saw her She’s looks much wiser but looking deeper into her eyes You can see desperation and frustration Of untangled dreams that seem far to reach Looking into her I realize she’s slowly growing old Never yet realizing her dreams and goals Her mind is focused on but one undertaking A venture that has enslaved her for years Step, step, barefoot on the beach, She would always dream about a sunny day Where she’d get sunkissed while listening to music On a fairly nice holiday away from the city buzz Ring, ring, its 1 o’clock She would always dream to wake up in the afternoon Even just for once in her life To know that she’s at least a human and deserves a bit more rest Swish, swish, she pulls her suitcase She would always dream to fly from one country or place to another Even just to savor the moment And pretend that all the world’s but a destination she can easily reach Brrr, brrr, she awakens from her realization That all these are just dreams And here she is, wasting away her youth In four cornered walls, her life slips away~ 101018 Church. 9:06pm

not living, rather just breathing.

Its like im a tight rope that people keep clinging on to Its sophocating I cant even phatom how i’ve been surviving for years and years Its draining, exhausting, but I’ve been bearing it Someone once told me, Aint it nice that people actually need you? But still, he told me that’s not it. You have to live your own life Not living the life others want you to Not living a life where others needs is first Not living a life where losing you is a waterloo Not living.. its simply not living, but rather compromising I’ve been meaning to look for the nearest exit But the tunnel just keeps on going on and on Its slowly weakening me to the core Tried to shout and cry in despair but to no avail I just wish someday things will be different I just wish someday i’ll find my own freedom A life I wish to live A life not caged by this four cornered walls To smell the flowers at daytime To breathe in the fresh air on a weekday To see how lovely the sunset is in summer And to experience life as told by many youngsters 💕 100118 Morning thoughts.

Para kay Kiko.

If only you knew how the world would be without you, If only you knew how those spaces in her hands would feel so empty If only you knew how big a void it would be to not have you here Maybe you'd stay Maybe you'll realize how big of a blessing you are Maybe you'll see how big of an impact you've made Perhaps it was too late Perhaps there were words never said Perhap it was meant to be left untold But we'll always wish for a comeback That one day you'll sing phrases And make new melodies and memories That one day you'll continue to strum and play Flash that big grin of yours And post witty stat ups on facebook Your life has touched many Though short you have lived well It may be the end of life But never the end for memories Forever entangled in our hearts Engraved with precious emotions Thank you for sharing your life Your songs, your frustrations and your joy The lyrics and melody will forever stay We wish you more love and happiness Our paths may no longer diverge in this lifetime But kudos kiko, you did well in this lifetime. - Dee 1.12pm 041318

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at patuloy akong magsusulat
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kumusta kaya ang araw mo?
kumusta kaya ang trabaho mo?

alas onse ng gabi, namimiss kita.
alam kong namimiss mo rin ako
kunwari ka pa.

alas onse ng gabi, at malapit na mag 12.
pero lilipas na naman ang araw at hindi kita kausap.
baka sakali bukas pagising, may green na tuldok.

alas onse ng gabi, magpapalit araw na.
pinapanalangin pagising ko, may good morning na.
o kahit siguro good night.

alas onse ng gabi, dumating na si pinsan.
hahawiin ang nangingilid na luha.
at tatapusin ang tula.



04.03.18
11:32pm